d wOrLd oF d cRaP pRiNcEsS

2006-09-29T20:09:00.000+08:00

MOVED!
CLICK CLICK

bleaaahh

2006-09-26T22:58:00.000+08:00

seriously??

-delete-

i have nthg else to say.

except..

i miss miss miss miss a lot Mohammad Afiq bin Abdul Hamed. eh. btol tak aku spell namer kau pit? hurhur.

and and and;

thurs buka pat luar ah gang! yessahhh!! everybody invited. yang tak puasa like VIN also coming. hurhur. best kaaaaaannn. confirm kecoh dot com. ini kali, legend mesti ader. kalau tak, ku korek idong nya. haha. ok whatever.

YAY YAY. BUKA PAT LUAR. HURHUR.

2006-09-24T01:07:00.000+08:00

im smiling a lot nowadays.

thank YOU

hugs, baby.

hello love.

2006-09-23T10:44:00.000+08:00

i am up early people. hur hur. its 1040hrs and im sitting comfortably on the couch with my lappie and teddy watching jimmy neutron. when was the last time i did that?

mmmm..teddy smells nice. eh please hor, he really does smell nice. not of saliva or anything ok. hah. that was super random.

my dad is being the super-est meanie everr. he is being the biggest retard cos he won't let me buka puasa outside cos he claims that i keep going out every single day. bedek la! i didn't ok. i went to school. i did! pastu baru aku klua la. but that's besides the point. i tried to explain but he cut me off. pantat.

ok enough about daddy. im already being a nice daughter yesterday and today by staying at home and do his every bidding. later have to go the suria carnival thinggy majigy somemore. eeeeek. alaaa..anything to make daddy happy so i can have my way. hur hur.

i miss my friends already. pouts. mira, aisha, ems. noni who is busy preparing for her As. and and and pipit. pantat.

i'm not shy, am i? hur hur.
i miss you dear.

inside my head.

2006-09-22T00:27:00.000+08:00

never in a million years i thought this could happen, but it did.

im tired balls.
and its back to studying tomorrow..bahh.
goodnight everybody.

hello kitty

2006-09-20T23:21:00.000+08:00

i want a kitten. word.

adorable la iliyas' kitten. so inquisitive, and eager. bright eyes. so playful. i want a kitten to keep me entertained at home. jump here and there, and it loves to bite me. my hands, my smelly feet and pounce on anything that is mobile. a bottle cap can keep the kitten busy, just chasing after it, pouncing and biting. absolute cuteness.

it played with aisha's hair. and it loves aisha's hair. hur hur. mcm cute nak mampos. i felt like smuggling it home but iliyas screamed and that kind of stopped me. haha. i miss the kitten already. shit. i need to get a ball of fur.

which reminds me, when are we going to the zoo people?

the legendary comeback.

2006-09-20T00:13:00.000+08:00

tired balls. came to school early to get some studying done, but laziness got the better of me. hur hur. oh. and hello elfi! ok ok, aku ketawa mcm ni. H-A-H-A. if i say it fast enough it sounds like eh chey eh chey. hahaha. fun la kau. we must hang out togther with ema and liyana and bitch about white men. hahaha.

here are pictures from the other day at arab st. little only la. the rest with ems and liyana. please excuse my face. H-A-H-A-H-A

oh. and i got this for being a nice girl. actually no la. i got this for turning 18. hur hur.

pretty, yes?

eh people, when you see me, ask for the time ok? i'll be proud to tell the time. hahahaha.

thank you very nice for the watch and the wonderful day out.

bye bye homosapiens

rainy days and spectacles.

2006-09-19T00:08:00.000+08:00

i spent the entire day with my spectacles on. i look effing kental but i don't care. i am just lazy today. its raining, and when it rains, my world just slows down, and i take a back seat. with my spectacles on.

i had a wonderful day girls.

haahaa
heeheee
no.

inside joke la.

hugs.

ahhh yess

2006-09-17T23:20:00.000+08:00

aku geram dengan diri aku sndiri.

-jumps about and pulls out my hair and jumps about again-

rain rain go away

2006-09-17T02:36:00.000+08:00

its been raining non-stop. non-stop hits! ok merepek. diam.

its 2 freaking 30 in the bloody morning. and i am not asleep. not sleepy, not tired. tossing and turning and tossing and turning. the entire household is away at lala land, and im not there yet. why oh why can't i get to bed? baaahhhhhh.

my hp is being such a bitch. bitch bitch bitch. its spoilt. im very very angry. it pulled a similiar stunt a year ago. pooonat btol.

cb ah. nirvana man has a girlfriend. pfffffft.

its time to hit the books. i failed 2 freaking modules. two. finance, which i expected cos i kept skippin class and not going for lecture for the entire of semester 2. hur hur. and also supply chain. sial btol! i blaja until want to die can fail. babi chitot haram. then i have to take marketing's paper cos i was sick. so in total, 3 papers. and out of the 3, i think i will pass only one? aiyaaaa. might as well take my time cos im repeating my elective. online students unite! sial sial. but im contemplating on not going for the supp papers at all. hmmmm. sial sial.

sometimes i wonder, if i actually find a companion, would he mind that i have a male best friend? and that i have tonnes of other male counterparts?

and sometimes, i wonder waaaay too much my head hurts. for an instance, NOW. hahahaha.

my eyelids are getting heavier, and so is my heart.

good night bunnies.

oh. and haz wants to buy me a kitten! but i said no. bodoh can. a small ball of fur would be nice to cuddle up to on a cold day like this.

random.

2006-09-15T08:01:00.000+08:00

good morning lovelies!! waaaa. so chirpy can! haha.

im listening to backstreet boy's i'll never break your heart. OMG. so primary school! hahaha.

heading to school in a bit. it turns out that i passed law! PASSED LAW LA OK! hur hur. but im being a good friend, so im going to school to meet the rest, aisha, ema and vin. if he wakes up. hahaha.

i'll never break your heaaarrttt.. diam sial. haha.

, me.

updates.

2006-09-14T23:49:00.000+08:00

here are the pictures, raw and uneditted. we didn't take many though. it was a very very lazy day, and we pretty much concentrated on lazing around and eating.

them digging my grave.

zul emo. HAHAHA.

vin reading cleo.

the boys and me.

new friend, nora! ema's cousin's friend.

kena saboh.

met zul first and received my present. a lot ok. and no worries, no bikinis of that sort. hahaha. many many things. and very very sweeet. thanks ah zul. then took train. walking walking, too engrossed in the pictures he took at thailand (oh. and i saw the fried things. cooool. but i dowan the cockroaches. too big. the maggots look ok though. hahha.) and i didn't notice vin in front. with...guess who? PIPIT!! that idiot said he couldn't make it. cos he was tired after working. i was super surprised. it was a nice surprise. and those two idiots, pipit and vin, pakat not to tell me. haha. it was a nice surprise. hahah.

it rained for a while so we sat at the kedai kopi and stocked up on food. hahaha. reached sentosa, found ems and joot and makan! pastu i bought my first pack of ciggies! but, they nvr asked for my IC, so the thrill wasn't there. hahaha.

we swam here and there (bedek ah). they climbed rocks and ems got injured. and she got pierced. and she couldn't feel her leg. BUT BUT BUT knowing how drama ems is, all not true. she could still feel her legs, she did NOT get pierced. it was a teeeeeeny weeeeny cut. haha. after complaining for a mere 5 mins, she was back in the sea, frolicking under the sun, in the sea and the sand. drama riiiiggghhhtttt?? haha.

i still have sand in my hair! had a tough time getting it out in the showers yesterday. rabak ah gang. hahaha. they buried me, turn it into a grave. put funny funny things on it, stepped on me. i had sand everywhere on me, my face, ears and mouth. padan muka! tu ah. tak tau diam kaaann. biseng lagik. haha. and i had to get out on my own. i couldn't feel my legs la! but in the end, they helped. hahaha. i almost cried like a baby. helpless siaaa. haha.

some of them saw people live in action! hahaha. funny ah. oh! we met ems cousin and friend who were also from nyp. they joined us and mangkin kecoohhh! laugh laugh laugh. played games. laugh laugh laugh again.

lalala and then we mandi-ed and went home. sumer very tired aredi. i fell asleep in the blue line. hahaha. the vrooom vroooom-ed very fast home. haha. thanks again zulili. hahahaha.

*****

going school tmr. i failed a couple of modules, and have therefore decided to go for supp classes. law tmr. mati laaaaa. hahaha. till den everybody!

ps. thanks nurul for the lovely diary!

, me.

sentosa gerek!

2006-09-13T22:03:00.000+08:00

wooohooo. tired balls. im typing with my eyes half closed. haha.

THANK YOU:
EMA
AISHA + SHAHRUL
ZUL
PIPIT
VIN
JOOTS
ILIYAS AND FRIENDS.

korang gerek laaaa. sayang korang sumer, love you all many many. i'll see you guys in sch. breakfast at macd's? (=

i'll update soon ah. tired to the ultimate maximum.

hugs.

happy birthday ain

2006-09-13T00:00:00.000+08:00

happy birthday bitch.

1 year older. 1 year closer to death.

-wails-
i don't wanna grow up!

thank you all who wished me. hugs.

i'll see you soon.

2006-09-12T18:10:00.000+08:00

my dear, i'll see you soon.

mcm emotional gitu, i cried in the bus! i feel silly. really silly. haha. come on, ain. its just somewhere near. i feel silly. haha. ok people, let's laugh it off. hahahahahahahaha.

ok da. tu jer. sentosaaaa, here i come! yet again. haha.

, me.

imustbegoingcrazy

2006-09-11T22:58:00.000+08:00

my lappie is going to meletop soon. and so am i, i think. haha.
random random. i cannot wait for wednesday, although i think i can. and i have a huge feeling that not many are gonna turn up. oh wells.

ezad, i know its still early to say this. but please come back in one piece. i'd be expecting nothing less than a message to verify that you are alive, in one piece and back in spore. HAHA.

where is zuuuuuul. chitot. i didn't know he'd be gone for such a long time. mcm ramai gitu org nak pergi seberang tambak. zul went to thailand, ezad's going to kelantan, i think cos i keep forgetting although he told me many many times and rafiq is going kl. and hafiz went to kl aredi. aisha pon. aku jealous dot com. the furthest i have gone during the entire dunno how many weeks of holidays was sentosa, i think? if not pon, johor.

i am so angry at my mother. she keeps nagging and nagging and nagging. mcm la besok tu tak exist. nag nag nag. chitot. i did the freaking laundry. i did the freaking dishes and im not entitled to spend quality time with my laptop? i am not talking to her. i didn't from just now till now. i am very very upset.

oh wells.

bye bye

hello

2006-09-11T15:00:00.000+08:00

people, i have changed my msn's address.

squiggles-@hotmail.com

add me up.

im hungry. i have so many many chores to do. and i cannot wait for wednesday!

ok bye.

, me.

i was bored.

2006-09-10T22:06:00.000+08:00

and i started snapping.

that's my teddy.

haha. ok tu jer.

i am sam.

2006-09-10T00:58:00.000+08:00

i cried. again. i cannot tahan. it was so sad. bahhh.

i bought a vanilla scented candle and a teddy at ikea with aisha and shahrul.

i love candles. vanilla scented ones. once i get my own room back, im gonna buy the vanilla scented tealight candles or whatever they're called and fill my entire room with it. wahahaha. then my room will smell like vanilla.

this is so random. i don't want to turn 18. i feel so old already.

wireless part 2.

2006-09-09T02:58:00.000+08:00

okok. im loving the wireless thing. ahahaha. finally i can surf on my bed with my laptop ON my lap. hah. sounds bimbo ok. was supposed to meet pipit just now, tapi tak menjadi. nvm. i shall take you ben&jerrying some other day. (=

a few pictures from the other day.

a shot by aisha.

oh. and this one's for THE LEGEND himself. i saw it on the way home.

"FOLLOW THE SPIRIT OF LEGEND"

stop it sial. hahaha. what an ego booster for ezad. haha.

ok tata. good night lovelies.

cuddles.

wireless

2006-09-08T15:59:00.000+08:00

hello beautiful people.

im going wireless! haha. ok aku jakon. sue me. pffffft.

ok. for my birthday wish, i want to go HERE.

tu jerrr. and and and. i miss a whole lot of people.

mira
noni who is
aisha
emaaaa
zuuul
ezad
viiin
jason sherms and lorraine.
and who ah?
nurhafiz
liyana
rafiq kental dot com
and and and my best friend. pipit kentot masam.

aku rindu everybody body.

ok bye ah.

hugs for everyone.
(=

2006-09-05T03:57:00.000+08:00

i somehow feel much much better.

i miss all my friends. i do. i can't wait for school to start. period. minus the TEP thing ah. i think TEP is gonna suck big time. but wth. as long as i get to go to schooool.

oh. my sister pecah kan my havainnas. or however you spell it. knn ccb. bahhhh. i'm freaking upset that im not talking to her. yes, its that bad. she pinjam nvr ask permission. chitot. i demand a new one! but the new one not nice ah. but nvm. gives me a reason to go to NUM. ema nak ikot? so we can look at ching chongs together. hahaha. what fuck.

when we were young.

2006-09-04T17:50:00.000+08:00

mum's first day at work, my first day of being truly alone at home. mcm best gitu kan sorang2 pat rumah. besar kan taik mata until 2pm. haha.

a post inspired by adibah. mcm seronok gitu aku tgk dier post gamba tentang masa masa lampau. waitamin. why am i blogging in malay? haha. ni confirm da case boring nak mampos.

o level results, the gang and me.

prom night, i look fugly la what's wrong.

post o level.

hari raya with the primary school people

first year in poly

emaa. hhaha.

first time in business wear. the whole class was so semangat to take pictures.

the entire class. semangat ok. with lanyards and all. haha.

me and seri. omfg, i miss this woman.

yours truly. the picture is boasting with slengerness ok. freshie mah.

******

ok. i soooo do not like to sit at home. you know why? cos this is the period whereby i am a housewife-in-training. fucking toot. my mum made up that phrase ok. she says, since you have nothing to do, sit at home and *insert a chore*. then after that you can *insert a chore*. nanti da kawin, you won't find it so difficult. like, HELLLOOOO? i won't be married for another 4 to 6 years unless, God forbid, i get preggers or smthg. 4 to 6 years ok? that would give her, my mum, plenty of time to prep me up for being a housewife. but then again, who says i want to become one? HAHA. my parents are weird don't you think? i rest my case.

cuddles.

belated.

2006-09-04T01:49:00.000+08:00

happy belated birthday babe. (=
cheers to our unusual friendship. haha.

it funny how i found dya. it was thanks to a few parties actually. namely, my kentot aisha, afiq i, ema and nurul.

once upon a time, i had this small misunderstanding btwn me and ema and nurul. and at that very point i liked afiq. this adds to that and i found myself on msn till 6am chatting with dya with the help of aisha. i thought she disliked me cos i was "with" afiq. and she thought i disliked her cos she was kinda close to him. but we ended up laughing ourselves silly and i found a friend in her, someone i could lean back on cos i was "fighting" with nurul and ems. and we had this uncanny resemblance. scary, yes? haha.

i love you dya. no matter how short our meet ups are, i'm glad you are my friend. and my one and only twin! hugs.

-cracks knuckles-

2006-09-01T22:06:00.000+08:00

soooo many pictures. i'll just die editting them.

ANYWHOOOS, right now i hope my lesbian partner is having a ball of a time cheating on me. you owe me a date woman! we shall go to arab st and buy me some stuff to stock up on. all the est ok babe? i know you know. lurps.

aishaaaaaa. take care ok. balek KL bawak kan aku bende yang bole jumpe pt KL je la. pape. tak kesa, tak cerewet. ahhahaha. lurve you many many.

zuuuuuul. go thailand and bring me back a real bomb for my bdae. you promised ok. hahah.

no time to update la. gathering pictures for the LJ. (=

bye toooots.

cuddles.

september!!

2006-09-01T00:27:00.000+08:00

my birthday month. HAH.
and also aisha's and dya's and shahrul's and haz's and whoeverpunyerbdaeinsept. heh.

the sept babies are going out tmr! ladidaaaaa. i miss dya ok! she looks like me. haha. lagik rambot dier da straight and mine is on the way to being straight again. im gonna scream my head off when i see her later. i love you, you twin. haha.

saturday meet darling pipit. darlingg or whaaaat..hahaha. got gig ah. nak emo emo. heh. aku rinduuuu sumer org ah.

ok bye.

cuddles.

ok go.

2006-08-31T18:28:00.000+08:00

aku da dapat kerje. no more rotting at home. well, mebbe for another two more weeks. hahaha.

sial punyer ema. dapat topshop. pffffft.

im the princess, the king's daughter.

2006-08-30T21:08:00.000+08:00

ahhh. what a blissful weather. the heavens poured onto this thing they call Earth.
the sky went dark, and little by little, it teared.
i glanced skyward; beautiful, just beautiful.
grey, red and a tinge of blue as well as orange.
the gust of wind made me shudder.
i switched off the mp3 and listened to the pitter patter of the rain.
therapeutic.
just what i need to end my day. (=

thank you to siti "aku feeling about being chad's girlfriend" ema. i had a wonderful time sitting at starbucks raffles talking about "litte ains" and "little emas" scurrying around a few years down the road. a hilarious time at town trying to decipher the secret codes boys used. a superdeeduper time at starbucks crown prince hotel talking about one tree hill and other teenage drama that can be applied to our own lives while sharing hot cocoa and dunking chocolate muffin into the drink to get the ultimate chocolatey experience. to wrap it up, i had so much fun, laughing the rainy weather away as we talked and talked and talked. i feel blessed to know that i have a friend like her i can lean back on in times like this. i love you, siti ema binte sulaiman. but i'm sorry, i can't be your lesbian partner. HAHA.

and yes people, i am the princess, the king's daughter, to Bandar Kovan. hur hur. inside joke ok.

girls, i hope we get the damned job. buhhh.

totally random

2006-08-30T02:05:00.000+08:00

i miss shahizan!

saper tu shahizan?

he is my msn buddy. and i suddenly miss him. it seems i was too busy with school over the past years that i totally forgot about him. the last time i saw him was at junction 8 when i skipped biz finance to watch a stupid movie, the omen.

that was the last time. i suddenly miss him, i have no idea why. oh wells. i'll call him soon.

im helping the sister chiong her D&T project. she has to hand it up tmr, or later rather, to whom it may concern. some stupid O level thing la. sheeeesh. when was the last time i chionged for a project? oh right. the fucken marketing management project which i flunked. cb. i hope my sis doesn't flunk this. it IS her Os you know. hah!

blank

2006-08-29T21:06:00.000+08:00

i was browsing thru my links, and found this on lenny's blog.

If you're confused, close your eyes and the one that you see is the one you think it will be.

ahhh..deepness.

so, the question is, who did i see?

hahahaha. so emo can. diam sial ain.

i'll be forcing myself to sleep early tonight. i have to rise early tomorrow to greet Mr. Sun and also to meet my dearest friends and my darling Pipit. i love you all many many.

and i totally miss my friends. all of them. i miss schooool. i miss sitting at Mac's talking rot, playing bluff. i miss going to the Free Access Lab to do noting but serve the net and freeze my ass off. i miss sitting at the smoking area, puffing the late afternoons away, i miss the company there; aisha + shahrul, ZUL, ema, ezad, vin, sherman, JASON & LORRAINE, paul, ian and the rest ah. i miss my smoking buddies. i miss the atmosphere (???) at the smoking area ah. a place to unwind and talk crap. to chill and decide not to go home. bual kontol, life stories, crite hantu. ahhhhhhhh! i miss schoooool. i miss gossiping and bitching and people watching. i miss disturbing tak bersalah punyer souls who walk past us at the smoking area. haha!

that's a mighty long entry on school. i miss schooooool.

cuddles.

crap.

2006-08-29T15:37:00.000+08:00

i should stop sleeping at 5am in the freaking morning.

but the temptation to laugh myself silly in the wee hours of the morning together with mira and pipit was just too tempting.

let's just say i laughed till i cried. i want to meet pipit and hug him la. for what? for fun. haha.

cuddles.

of jobs.

2006-08-28T22:51:00.000+08:00

was supposed to go for the interview at liyaa's place, but i ended up not going cos i was already late. the interview was due at 4.45pm, and at 4.40pm i was still walking lazily at citylink mall.

"eh. late aredi you know. takya pergi suda."
looks at the watch. "alaaa. ok la. we go eat. hungry ah."
"ok good. since you not going right, i want to see stuff."

sial btol. i say i hungry, then he still wants to see stuff. kental la you! walk here walk there and settled down at pizza hut. fuck, its been a long time yes? piiiizzzaaaaaaaa..

and i saw shan wee la what's wrong! tak bole tasyan can..

then jalan jalan around town, roaming aimlessly like a pair of kukus. no. he is the kuku one. stupid fucker. ahahaahaha. walked into a shop with some stupid old school haram.com punyer boyband's music. came up with stupid scenarios where the boyband sang their stupid sad sappy love songs along with kentalan haram punyer dance moves ala backstreet boys and 'nsync. we cracked up with laughter and ran out cos it was too much to bear.

all in all fun ah.
and stop being paranoid la ok. haha. stupid toot.

that's my day. how was yours?
(=

~~time for grey's anatomy. a dose of wise words from meredith doesn't sound that bad to end my hectic day.~~ sial. takder. cos got the EMMYS. damn.

cuddles.

ps. mcm da lamer tak klua ngn pipit. PIIIIT! my bdae bring me out ok. i demand an outting. haha. lurps!

stop the jibber jabber.

2006-08-28T01:20:00.000+08:00

thank you mira for the bonding session.(=

hello idiots from my nightmare. yes, im still alive. spending whatever i have left of the holidays at home doing nothing but eat and sleep. ahhh. the life. hahaha.

i really have to stop sleeping so late. the last time i slept at 10pm was so long ago. now my bed time's at 4am? 5am? can't sleeep. pfffft.

so ya, just to say im still alive. hah.

cuddles.

island life, love it! part 2.

2006-08-25T21:42:00.000+08:00

im baaaack! with pictures pictures pictures! WOOOT WOOOOT!

guesss whoooooo.....?? HAHAHA

the boys decided to play with sand. i think they were high la. they made a Slurpee god. wth right? but, after they prayed to the god, shahrul found 10 freaking bucks siaaalll. cb right? pfffft.

then they climbed trees. i tried. i failed. -.-"

the things the boys & ME did. we itched shortly after that. HAHA.

GROUP PHOTOS!

nice riiiiiggghhhtttt.

thank you. (=

videos later. heh.

island life - love it! part 1

2006-08-25T00:39:00.000+08:00

wooot wooot! was fun ya'll! hahaha. planned to meet up at eleven but everyone was late except for ems and joot. i came at 11.30am and vin came at 12pm. aisha went to meet shahrul first so they came at 1pm? sherms came next. followed by hafiz. he missed his paper la! haha. aiseyymann.

sat under the sun, sang loudly, breathed in fresh ocean breeze, feel it in my hair and just talked crap. they tanned and i just sat there looking at the ocean.

vin had a theory that sand can kill us and i took a video of it. hahah! shall upload it. mandi mandi, contributed a little part of me to the sea, played ball and frisbee. dug out disgusting black colour thingy which smells like shit and they, vin, sherms and shahrul smeared it on themselves as well as me. what toots. we itched for a while after that and the smell clung to our skins and we smelled like shit ah. haha.

hafiz came then we went to sea and played that hand-tap thing. laughed ourselves silly. did people watching and had a fair dose of bitching about it. i didn't know boys could bitch. haha.

i feeling feeling explorer and climbed the rocks on the edge. gerek sial! i want to climb some more ah. woooohoooo.

the girls and i bathed together. naked! NOT. HAHA.

took tonnes of pictures and the camera died on me. pfffft.

pics later!

cuddles.

ps. we made a video for ezad. why? cos we planned this outting for him la! then in the end nvr turn up. so much for the enthusiasm ah ezad? haha. cook for us and all shall be well again. heh.

pps. going over to mira's tmr! wooot woooot! (=

hello, love. im sorry, but i have to go.

2006-08-24T10:02:00.000+08:00

the title was random ok.

its 10am and im still here not yet ready. nt yet packed my bag. im so gonna be late. its gonna be a draggy day, i feel, cos im so fucken sleepy. im gonna sleep in the bus, ya'll. put on the shades and just sleeeeep. im so sleepy. mebbe at sentosa, i just sleep ah. i don't even know who's going. wth am i talking siaa. must be sleeeepy.

RAFIQ DA BOTAK LA EH!

that was just super random. and he is not botak la. just near botak. haha. random random. random keeps me from mtyping what i really wanna type. that's good. cos if i do type what i really wanna type, hell will break lose.

so that's it la. i miss my bestfriends. all of them.

cuddles.

swoooonn

2006-08-23T23:12:00.000+08:00

hady mirza almost made me cry after his 1st performance. besides the fact that he was singing Legenda which means Legend and confirm chop ezad prasan sendiri. HAHAHA.

he, ezad, said that if i am bored, i can feature him in my blog. and i shall just do it. don't regret what you say ah.

CHHAAAAAKK!!
how? scared or not? my mum was.

this is ezad's nose. after taking this picture, he commented that it looks like a toilet bowl. ?? i don't see any toilets or bowls.

this is ezad trying oh so desperately to take an emo picture.

the thing bout ezad kan, he can never take a decent picture. never. no matter how hard me & aisha try to force him to smile properly, and no funny funny poses, it will turn out disastrous. so ya. he cant take a decent picture for nuts.

so girls. think he is cute? ~~you can contact him~~ alaaa. he lost his fone. nvm. can just tell me. hahah.

okok. i want to go watch high school musical again. zac efron is the most wooohoooo-est and he makes me..cream?

cuddles.

i should seriously learn.

2006-08-23T14:54:00.000+08:00

eh cb ah.

it ain't gonna happen no matter what you all say ok. seriously. ni kali aku serious nyer bebual ok.

that sounds minah. whatever la. sometimes sounding like one helps in this kinda situation.

okek. time to photoshop. which means im bored, feeling arty or pissed.
now? PISSED. SUPER. BIG TIME. WORD.

insomniac?

2006-08-23T03:54:00.000+08:00

yes. im still awake. was up doing the photos la. its kind of therapeutic, however you spell it. i enjoy photoshopping when im bored, can't sleep, pissed off or just feeling feeling arty. heh. i spent a great deal on the picture of me and aisha. haha.

in the wee hours of the morning, one must will the mind not to think of stupid things. seram la! ok bye bye beautiful people.

cuddles.

sweating.

2006-08-23T01:51:00.000+08:00

omg omg. i didn't know msn-ing can be so tiring. haha. the beeping has stopped. so ya.

Forever friend
reach out to me when you feel despair
and when your burdens are too many
the load I will gladly share
and when your heart grows weary
and dark clouds cover you
My friend I will stay beside you until the
sun shines through.
Forever friend,
we have shared so much
a special love we have come to know
we have laughed and cried together and
helped each other in love to grow
Forever friend
within my heart a special place
for you is there
because you are my forever friend and
I will always care.
- Pipit

knn ccb. im so overwhelmed. i still am. the feeling of overwhelmness is gonna have an effect on me for one week, i can surely say that. if he were to be in front of me, i would have ran (if he is a distance away la) and hugged and kissed him. who knew that the boy i have known for what seems to be eternity (bedek ah. 12 years and counting ok..) would grow to be a sweet, caring and utterly feeling feeling man. ahhh. im so proud of him. =')
i love you, you tempek. even though you are irritating and idiotic at times. haha.

im still so touched.

cuddles.

towningg

2006-08-22T21:49:00.000+08:00

woot woot! HAHA

today was shades galore, cramps galore and also job-hunting galore. haha. please, please, please i want a tooting job! moolah! i need and want moolahh. let's find me a rich boyfriend. ok whatever. that was random.

put together three hungry, noisy, kecoh, and cannot-keep-still girls and you will get: ME + AISHA + EMA! taadaaaaaaa. we talked like the whole stretch of orchard was ours and no one else. the girls indulged themselves in retail therapy; getting all ready for the sentosa trip this thurs (woot wooot!!), one wants to buy bikini and suntan lotion (?) and shades and the other wanted to buy a tankini. so the semangat! haha. ain pon layan kan ajer.

ema showed the entire of orchard that she loves and totally adores HI-5. yes, the kids' show. she sang so loud la! and once again, ain layan kan ajer..she also sang along with ema. HAHA.

so we sat at starbucks to plan for the trip to sentosa (wooot wooot!!). and we came up with the details. EHEMM EHEMM.

meet at 11am, eleven am, sebelas pagi.
at that place they call habourfront interchange.
bring own food or risk starving, cos i for sure ain't sharing. haha.
pack up at 5pm cos its malam jumaat and its the 7th month and we don't want to risk any encounters now, do we?
who wants to stay, stay lah.
what else ah?
bring the other necessary items lah you would bring for a standard lepak-ing session.
ok go!

then ems went off to meet her friend and there was just me and my kentot. just like old times ah babe? haha.

i love you la kentot. thank you, thank you, thank you. for the listening ears. and also the ciggies. heh. im on the way to quitting. you must too, ok? and ur boyfriend is just the sweetest la. shall see you soon. lurps!

then off to home. stopped by crown prince to try my luck and see whether nurul's there. and taadaaaaaaa, she was there. a huge massive teddy bear hug was what i got. haha.

eh pompan. i miss you merepekness ok. pray that i sit for supp papers so i can meet you at schooool and get a dose of the merepekness. hahaha.

da. tu jerrr. oh yes, to those who can't follow due to exams and presentations and whatnots, i take pictures for you all la. and don't jealous jealous and geram geram ok! love you all many many. (=

cuddles.

oh tralalalaaa

2006-08-22T11:03:00.000+08:00

omg omg. it is ELEVEN!! i still haven gosok my stuff and im here blogging away and and and doing everything at one thing. im multitasking. yes, that's the word.

checking mails, transfer songs to the mp3, replying comments. hahah. ok. mcm hectic gitu life aku..feeling jerrr. HAHA.

meeting the TOOTS later. and all, all our prepaids are low and we have no means of contacting others. pathetic, don't you think? heh.

they are going shopping, then we finding ourselves some jobs and the planning of our sentosa outting. wooot woooot!!

and vin, i know its you ok at the LJ. don't bedek. and F Y I; me, aisha, ema, ezad, nurhafiz are going to sentosa.

WOOOOT WOOOOT!!

*super hyper. i don't know why. HAHA

ok go!

cuddles.

wooot wooot

2006-08-21T22:22:00.000+08:00

ok. i am that bored ok. changing blog skins like no ones business. judging on the abundance of posts, you can very well see that i am THAT free everyone. i neeeed some lovin'! no la. actually, i just need to go out and soak in the sun. and have a superdeeduper fun time with the girlfriends. anyone of them. i have many many girlfriends; girls who are friends and boys who are friends. who cares if they are boys or girls? i classify the close friends as girlfriends. and yes; it includes you darling bestfriend. PIPIT! apersal la kamu pt sekolah lain? ishhh. see la, now our holidays different. grrrrr. i miss you ok!

i miss Nur Dhamirah bte Pawi & Nuriani bte Mahat also. &&& Muhd Hazlami bin Zawawi who is busy getting black (or tan as he calls it), sweating in his uniform, running here and there, getting lost inside jungles & also not forgetting busy serving the nation and having a fun time at that.

i think the school's system is pretty screwed up. here i am, having my holidays. and there they are, my other friends, having a fun time doing their exams. what crap.

oh wells. im going out tomorrow! towning la where else. haha.

cuddles.
*step cute siaaaa

attack of the cramps.

2006-08-21T00:51:00.000+08:00

ahhh yes. we all know what this means. knn ccb. PAIN.
big bold letters.

-wails-

how to go sentosaaaa. pfffft. i shall go! even if it means the sea shall turn red. muahahahaha. errr..that's kinda ewwwww.

HAHAH.

randomness kicks in. i just bought a mini teddy. it is orange. my fave colour. -grabs teddy and squeezes it- it looks kinda yellow. it is yellow, but the packaging says orange. MacD's ppl are making me confused. so is it yellow or orange? who cares? i have a mini teddy! -shows off-

i miss my friends. you you you. ALL of you. even iliyas who irritates the shit out of me. oh dear God, im so deprived of going out! but am going out with mumsy to Godknowswhere tomorrow to buy Godknowswhat. just follow la. as long as i get to go out. (=

oh dear. my throat is still scratchy and so gatal. erk.

eh ppl. is it true that when i watch a movie with anyone of you i cannot keep still? i can be still right? right? cos some people say i cannot keep still in the theatre. -rolls eyes and makes a whatever face- HAHA

this post is oh-so-random. excuse me.

oh man..

2006-08-20T19:24:00.000+08:00

i must be super bored huh. two posts. and counting? HAHA.

oh im so in love with Disney's high school musical! no. i don't have cable. but i DO have YouTube.com heh. its the next best thing to cable a friend said. and so it is true. zac efron is so cute, yo! omg omg. but right, there was a screw up and i can't watch the entire thing. grrrr. and i was already at part 6, halfway thru. aiyaaaa. eh. find me the DVD can? d/l it is gonna take forever. but am doing it anyway. hahaha.

hello boyfriend! (=

ok la. i shall get back to reality and bore myself to death.

sentosaaaaaaa. here i come!!

oi

2006-08-20T16:49:00.000+08:00

sentosa this thurs anyone?

(reads: ezad, ema, aisha + shahrul, nurhafiz, nurul, pipit and whoever la.)

tag tag tag!

here or there?

2006-08-19T22:25:00.000+08:00

here. i wanted to type it there. but no, i shall type it here. here.

the song linger is playing in my head. lingering in my head. and its playing non-stop siaaaa. this song makes me want to cry. i dunno why. mebbe its because of the movie click. or mebbe on a subconcious level, it reminds me of something. or someone.

but bottom line, i want to cry. and bawl. and just throw tantrums. baaaahhhhhhhhh.

my prepaid is low everyone.

you know im such a fool for you
do you have to let it linger?

i just realised....

2006-08-19T17:59:00.000+08:00

i still got one more paper to study for!!
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh! sial.com

so much for the holidays. takper. enjoy while i still can. heh.

pfffffft.

2006-08-18T21:55:00.000+08:00

wth. dengar dengar skarang bas da tak pakai tayar. bus da up siket. pakai kapal terbang nyer engine and it can fly like one too.

fuck la. unreasonable fathers can sometimes make you so mad. but when you think about how stupid and unrealistic their theories are, you can't help but to laugh at them and the theories they make up.

my dad for example thinks that his daughter (read: ME) is a super woman. he expects me to be home by 9.45pm yesterday. padahal i called him at 9.30pm to say i just finished watching a movie in town. yelahh. aku kan bole terbang. bukit panjang dengan orchard tu dekat je. jalan kaki da bole sampai. bas pon skrg da bole terbang. oh tak la. aku kan da pass license kereta. da bole drive daa. sial.

then in the afternoon, he asked me reach home at what time. i said 11.45pm. and he asked me the most riduculous question. naik bas eh? yes, ayah. now the buses express. tak payah ikot traffic light. sumer dier langgar. duh. i took the taxi, dad. taxis are invented for a reason. tak mungkin aku sampai ruma gitu nyer cepat naik bas kan? ish.

and a few weeks before that, me and the sister wanted to go to the library at woodlands. time check: 2pm.

me: ayah, we going library.
dad: da sembahyang?
me and sis: -rolls eyes-
me: da laa.
dad: what time come home?
me: 5pm gitu.
dad: no no. you come home at 3.30pm.
me and sis: -wtf-
me: bole. kasi duit taxi. yela. causeway point dengan ruma kiter kan dekat macam pasar tu. jalan kaki sampai pe.
dad: ok ok. 4pm.
me: huh? 5pm? ok. bye ayah.
-angkat kaki belah-

unreasonable right? stupid. then when we reached home, i remembered he was sleeping. wth siaaaa.

eeeeeeee. tak paham aku. binget binget!! frust frust!!

anyways, the colour coord like shit but i don't care. bleaahh. i still love the song. hah!

linger

2006-08-18T16:17:00.000+08:00

tralalala

i love this song since i heard it while watching click. and its playing non-stop on my lappie.

and after a few clicks, its here on my blog. i know its super old school. but nice la. lyrics at the side for those who wants to menghayati this song.

much love, much love. i miss nurul la what's wrong.

clickity click

2006-08-18T13:30:00.000+08:00

one of the most heartwarming movies. the right amount of laughter and tears. and i cried. i cried and on my right aisha and ema and ezad cried as well. and on my left, rafiq laughed at me. stupid sia that idiot.

i love love love my friends. (=

thank you everyone; ema, aisha + boyfriend, ilyas, nurhafiz, rafiq and ezad. i had a wonderful evening besides the fact that i almost got locked out of my house for coming home late. ahahahahahahaha.

sentosa anyone?

in defence of aisha

2006-08-15T20:57:00.000+08:00

like come on la. she is entitled to run her own life. cos she knows what's best for herself. and mebbe (mebbe i said.) that is why she had the break up. and she is happy now.

if you aren't happy with your life, you have absolutely no right whatsoever to ruin others just to let them see what you see, let them feel what you feel.

karma? if you do believe in karma, then you shouldn't even do this. cos karma will let you have a fair share of it.

so my say is, let her be. she is you past, and you are hers. don't ruin it.

i've had just about enough. see. this is the reason why i cannot be bothered to keep in contact with the ex boyfriends. to much trouble, don't you agree?

2006-08-15T01:25:00.000+08:00

haha!

muka slenger siak fiq. but thank you nonetheless for the much needed outting. the lake house is ok la. 6 out of 10. some boring parts, some romantic parts. can la. i enjoyed myself. thank you. (=

for someone;
its this love-hate thing i have for you.
and its driving me to the brink of insanity.

good night lovelies. (=

i miss them friends.

2006-08-14T13:53:00.000+08:00

ahhh. the holidays. i hate holidays. i spend too much time doing..nothing. i need to get a bloodeh job. saper nak ikot pergi job hunting sama aku?

i miss them la.

pictorials.

2006-08-13T01:02:00.000+08:00

the pictures are basically self-explainatory la ok.

last day of school!!

lawa muka atok! haha

why do we indulge in such crap?

ok ezad. we get it, you work at mc cafe. fine. pfft.

a shot by ilyas. pretty pretty.

two heads are better than one. or so they said..

me, liyana and aisha

escape!

the best friend and i

brunch at delifrance.

before the ride..

after the ride. scary shit. but was fun though. hahah.

the ride that make me sick. -pukes-

haz's shoe. mcm ketupat. hahah

new friend, hidafi (= noni and me

i shall update later la ok when im not as busy as i am right now. feel free to steal for all i care. hahahaha

last paper besok

2006-08-10T22:38:00.000+08:00

wooohooo. last paper tmr. at least i hope la. hahaha. i didn't come to sch today for obvious reasons.

1. i was sick
2. and due to that, i couldn't study.

huahuahua.

tomorrow full force!!

everysinglebody is gonna be there tomorrow.

aisha, ezad, lorraine, sherm, jason and vin. the whole gang. we shall smoke the evening away before going our separate ways for the hols. cehh. emo can. hahahaha.

i must come sch tomorrow ah. must must must. and so i must sleep now. heaheahea. omg. i laugh funny. hahahaha

ok bye people.

attention everybody.

2006-08-09T16:25:00.000+08:00

ilyas asked me to spread the word.

1st sept.
YouthEmpire presents outdoor party, THE KRUNK!
market@tanjong beach sentosa! 1st largest over 100stalls flamboyant midnight market+Krunk rnb beach party presenting surprise performance The Flesh Parade! 6pm-6am $20presale+1drink+island entry! alc+nonalc.

anyone? tell me and i'll tell him.

have a plesant holiday people.

(=

2nd paper

2006-08-07T22:50:00.000+08:00

errrrr. law was never my thing can. okok. it was my thing when i have the mood. but when i don't, i'll chuck the book far far away. damn. i should have went for the revision tutorial can. damn.

but i suppose the paper was do-able. i think i'll pass. oh wells. still got supp paper. if not can take again. cehh. bual mcm paham. hahaha.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ZUL!!

he super stoned today. the super stoned birthday boy. i hope you like the present la eh. haha (=

okok. efma in 11 hours. huahuahua. i think this one i can make it. at least i hope so. heh.

ok bye sumerr.

1st paper

2006-08-05T00:07:00.000+08:00

hello one and all.
like finally kan i update. haha. oh wells. busy body mahh.

1st paper, biz finance. like shit. topics i studied didn't come out. wth. pagi pagi buta bangon amek calculator. skali da dlm train g sch, calculator aku dalam bag. aiseyyyy. buang masa amek calculator. buang duit beli calculator baru cos i told mum i lost my calculator. i feel so legong can. haha!

so ya. i think i'll be sitting for the supp paper la. what shit.

past few days have been super hectic. intense study sessions till 9pm in the sch library. studying with clever ppl makes me feel clever. haha. but i think studying with them fun la. (=

besides that, everything's a-ok. or is it? hahaha.

a lot of eye candies can this past few days. a sea of eyecandies. eyecandies galore. eyecandy buffet. hhahaha.

see. this is what happens when you study too much. ok laa. bye sumerrr.

2006-07-31T16:53:00.000+08:00

siak siak. ezad ketawe kan aku time aku nak bangon from my seat and i was going pain pain. and he laughed his head off. saddist. pffffft.

i discovered that my arms gt bruises la. wtf. pain pain!!

oh. aku sunggoh saket in the kepala.

.....

2006-07-31T02:31:00.000+08:00

its ok i suppose. no need to apologise i think. i'll find my own way.

oh. im sorry too. for falling in the first place.

-hops away-

im still in pain siak. wtf. i can't even attempt to hop. i want to go sch besokkk. or later rather. haha. ok aku rasa bodoh.

everyone's back to normal i guess. pipit da ok balek ngn dier peh lover girl, jess. whom i met the other day at the gig at the art's house. pleasant girl. ema darik MIA jadik giler over whatshisnametherivermayaguy. so ya. all's well, ends well.

good night lovelies.

aaaahhhhhh. pain can.

2006-07-30T20:23:00.000+08:00

i fell. gedebop gedebop. yes people. my ass bounced twice on the cold hard wet cement floor. raining mahh. and the slipper didn't do much justice. wtf. and so i slipped and fell. and im still in pain. can't walk. when i sit, i can't stand. and when i stand i can't sit. sial laaaa. pain siak. how to go sch sey tmr.

talking abt sch. i wonder which irritating faces i shall see tmr. hmmmmm. haha.

ok bye la. i want to shower and wait fer mummy to come home so she can massage the pain away. at least i hope so la. haha.

here's the deal.

2006-07-28T02:26:00.000+08:00

i dare you to.

oh. and you wish.

ahhhhhhh.

2006-07-27T18:59:00.000+08:00

if only..

my books can talk. it'd be a hell lot easier for me to study.

some people get what im trying to do. so they get as far away as possible from me.

i can predict the future. mcm best gitu. hahahha.

if only la. but wtf. if onlys don't happen.

eh siak ah zul. kau mulot masen la. kan skrg da btol2 pms. tsk. hop away la you stupid bunny. hahahahahaha

new song!!

2006-07-26T18:53:00.000+08:00

siak uh. this song kicks ass can. i heard it on the radio early this morning while studying at home. i love i love!! (=

I'm having the day from hell,
It was all going so well (before you came)
And you told me you needed space,
With a kiss on the side my face (not again)
And not to mention (the tears i shed)
But I should have kicked your (ass instead)
I need intervention
Attention to stop this wretched scream

Cause baby
Everything is effed up straight from the heart
Tell me what do you do, when it all falls apart
Gotta pick myself up where do I start
Cuz I can't turn to you when it all falls apart
No

Don't know where I parked my car
Don't know who my real friends are (anymore)
I put my faith in you
What a stupid thing to do (when it rains it pours)
And not to mention (I drank too much)
I'm feeling hung over (and out of touch)
I need intervention
Attention to stop this wretched scream

Cause baby
Everything is effed up straight from the heart
Tell me what do you do, when it all falls apart
Gotta pick myself up where do I start
Cuz I can't turn to you when it all falls apart
No

Can it be easier?
Can I just change my life?
Cause it just seems to go bad everytime
Will I be mending?
another one ending once again

Everything is effed up straight from the heart
Tell me what do you do, when it all falls apart
Gotta pick myself up where do I start
Cuz I can't turn to you when it all falls apart
No [x2]

Falls apart
Gotta pick myself out cause things are mended

i love. ahahahaha. i realise i love putting lyrics on my blog. haha. oh wells. its almost 7pm and im still on my ass in the school's library studying and now taking a break. nurhafiz's wimme doing his proj last min. haha. and he is entertaining me with his stupid stupid antics, singing out loud and waving his hands in the air. da macam monyet yang boleh nyanyi plak. hhahahahahah.

ok balls. want to pee la. and it doesn't help that the toilet so freaking far.

study, study, studying.

2006-07-25T18:56:00.000+08:00

ahhhh. the library is soooooo quiet. except for aisha's constant clicking of the mouse. she's playing spider solitaire beside me la.

business law babe. so aku ni tgh feeling lawyer. lawyer or whaaaatt. hahaha. its back to the normal routine of sitting for hours on my ass in the library studying for the exams and taking a break only for lunch and dinner, smoke break or toilet break. feels weird to start studying again. sampai ke malam la aku pt sini..mcm tak biasa plak. heh.

so that's about it. blame the studying ok if im absent from blogging? studies impt la. like nurul said, kau nieeeee. da la extend kau nyer stay pat skola. masek nak main main. pi blaja! hahaha. you just wait next sem la ok! haha.

lotsa love to my babes and pipit for being there when i needed things to vent my anger on. i feeel bad la. haha. i promise, no more ok? love you all many many.

ahhhhhh. micheal buble's voice is soothing can. the perfect companion for studying. micheal, we be study buddies ok? and jamie cullum also. we go on study dates together ok boys? hahaha.

hello world.

2006-07-24T12:48:00.000+08:00

CHAAAAKKK!!

heh. in the FAL la. waiting for ema to come. how's you? how's me? how's everyone?? hahahaha.

i finally met up with mira tooooot. i missed her so very much. its a wonder we are going through the same thing. hahahahhaha. tough life ey woman? but i still love you tonnes. hugs. we'll get thru whatever it is that we are going thru. oh. and i ate fried mars bars!! zaaaakiiiii!!! i ate fried mars bars la! haha. sinful. super sinful.

been talking on the fone for a lot of days aredi. bedek eh. onie 3 days. hahaha. pipit! gue rindu banget sama loh temepek. i give you a big big hug when i see you ok? hugs la. and love you many many.

thank you ema and pipit for filling in my nights. (=

phat night like merepek la. but i kinda had fun. zuuuuul so slenger. he kept making stupid antics and made us laugh. haha! oi. thanks for the ride home okek.

my weekends were shit. i just refuse to talk about it.

besides that, im fine.

sayang korang yang sayang aku. ok bye.

pain can

2006-07-18T16:22:00.000+08:00

saket laaa. ema pinched me. and now got blueblack punyer mark. -pouts- pain ok.

today i have a biz finance ICA. best part is, i have not stepped into the lecture theatre since start of school this semester. best kaaaaaan. and lagik best, i just got to know it today. HAHAHA. tak bawak calculator lagik. best nyerrrr.

pirates of the carribean 2 was great. the ending mcm crap la. hanging. oh wells, orlando bloom's presence made up for that. and also ben & jerry's cookie dough. mmmmmmm. heh. now have to wait for the third and last installment of the pirates of the carribean trilogy which will be coming out next year. which is in another 4 months. fast siaaaa 1 year pass by.

my arm is still in pain.

haloh world.

2006-07-17T14:56:00.000+08:00

lalalala. feeling good on a mon uh. haha. 1st time feeeeling good. woke up superbly early. reached school superbly early. feel gooooood.

my weekends?
ok la. can. not so bad.

saturday go johor. came back, had dinner with my brother. like shit, he is super dark. no, not that he is dark as shit. but he is dark. superbly dark. then botak somemore. but he is still the same old haz. the merepek kerepek haz, the one who always brings me back to the ground. haha. i kissed and made up with mira.

Dearest,
i am superbly sorry for whatever happened. sumpah aku akan bawak kau klua time holidays okaaaay? and im sorry it seems that i have been having alot of fun with my polymates. jealous kaperrrrr. hahahahhahahahahaahah. but i am really sorry. and i DO miss you. cehh. da macam lesbo pulak. hahaha. im straight k ppl.

Noni,
i dunno why you get so worked up. but in any case, i am sorry for not coming to mira's bdae.

sunday, g madrasa. pastu balek. pastu tido. hahaha. simple life.

ezad just tried to scare me. too bad. i can smell him from far away. muahahahahahahhaha.

oh. and i said hello to one of my eyecandies in school today. fuck it la that he is attached. say hello only whatt. but he so cute can. mysterious la sialll. wooooooohoooooo. mampos aku kalo matair dier baca. muahahah.

ahhhh. that fimiliar look in the eyes..cair can.

collide

2006-07-14T12:15:00.000+08:00

hello lovelies. in the lab la. can't stay long. i had a super weird dream last night. hahahaha. i shan't blog abt it. paiseh can. heh.

friday's here. and the weekends are, well, tomorrow. haha! babybeats baby!! cehh. mcm paham. but i want to go la. saper nak pergi ngn akuu?
besok go johor, shopping! ouhlalalaaa.

pirates of the smthg2 i don't know how to spell. haha. i want to watch it with my friends can. what say you my regular movie kakis? (=

sherman so cute can. hahhah. clad in orange, my favourite colour.

projects are over, 2 more presentations to go then the exams. after that, the holidays.

ahhhh. sweeeeeet. i've accomplished what i have to do.

farhan! i haven't forget you la. i super busy. busy bee. hahhaaha. take care ok friend. so many things sia i want to tell youuuu. heh.

alrighto.

I worry I won't see your face light up again..

what't the use of giving options when you can't choose?

cehhh. aku feeling wise niari.

ala canggong. random entry la.

2006-07-13T16:40:00.000+08:00

this post is written from 1402hrs till 1643hrs.

eeeeeeeeeeeee. stress nyerrr. die die by today must finish up my proj. don't care if i have to go home late. die die by today siaa. stress nyerrrrr.

nak rokok nk rokok!! but cannot la. must cut down. cut down aredi horr. yest one stick onie. today 2 sticks. haha.

alamak. ader ke patot dier tanyer pasal mak aku. hahaha. aper sajer la.

sejok nyer ibrc ni. alamak. i feel like shitting siaaa.
wooohooo. banyak sunggoh aku kasi tu jamban makan. haha. owwww. my behind hurts. haha

concentrate. concentrate. you want to stay in school until night or whaaatttt.

sial la. asal leceh dot com nak kene pakai lanyard segala. nasib baik i never wear my slippers. eh, besok nak ke sch ke tanak ehh. emsie is hereee.

i am boreedddd. i so hate consequences and running from you is my best defence. i love this song la. oh. zuliii is sick. alahaaaaiiiii. kesian nyerrrrr. hahaha. mcm sumer org pon saket la.

1536hrs. sejok nyerr. menyesal aku pakai skirt pendek and tak bawak sweater. all i have is a flimsy piece of meterial call a shawl.

ehhh. you guys have to read the lyrics to this song la. relient k - when i go down. serious. tak bedek. can cry ok. was listening2 while doing the proj. tak tau pulak gt such song in my lappie. must be my sis la. she's such a relient k freak. click here.

touching kannnnnn. my sis so emo la what's wrong? im not emo k. im waaaaay over emo. im depressed. kidding la siak!! hah. did i scare you? haha. crap. im not emo. just tired. mentally and physically tired.

1600hrs. alahaii. yellowcard's only one. everytime i hear this song, i get goosebumps. then if im freaking emo, i'll cry. i swear. like every freaking time. this song super sad la. and super sweet. you are my only, my only one..sheeeeeesh.

1635hrs. sial laa. ibrc is by far the most boring place ever. no cute guys la siak. at least library ader jugak pop out one or two. tapi ibrc none. zilch. kosong. zero. sad can?

and so it is...ema tgh nyanyi can! so feeling kiter dua. hahaha. blower's daughter or whaaaaatt.

ok la. until here onie.

i thought i saw sincerity in your eyes. i thought wrong la.

wahahahha

2006-07-12T17:56:00.000+08:00

aku feeling can.

i was bored la. and i was listening to howie day puner lagu, collide. and so i doodled away. im so talented. i know. HAHAHAHAHHA

me and ems in the library now. and there is this person who is sitting or should i say lying down on two chairs engrossed in his gameboy advanced. like omg la what's wrong? hahhahaha. and i snapped a picture with ema as my accomplice. we are naughty girls! haha. cheap thril siaaaaaa.

wahahahhahahaha. okek. nurul waiting. nak p mkn la. woooohoooo. pasta mania. yumayyyyyy.

the chronicles of zul.

2006-07-12T11:33:00.000+08:00

zul! this one's for you!!

muahahahahaha.

fo' shizzle ma nizzle!!

damn. im trying so hard not to laugh la sial. damn funny la. zul zul. hahahaha. lazer dot com this one. tiuuu tiuuuu! HAHA. member feeling eminem la hari tuuu. hahaha.

hello world! or to the rest of the world who happens to stumble upon my blog. haha. ok whatever. what a sloooooooooow day. everything like so slow la today. cos why? cos its cold and rainy. rainy days are always so slow..time crawls by. eh. sejok la!

so many things to accomplish by the end of today.

1. study for efma, do tutorial.
2. get back my calculator
3. ~~post zul's pics online~~ HAHAHAHA
4. ~~get earphones~~. cheapo ones la.
5. go jogging. early morning rain la. so tak jadik. later mebbe.
6. find a hubby for nurul cos all of them; ema, nurul and aisha, want to get married oh-so-quickly. wth sia you all. hahahah.
7. marketing management ica 3.
8. ~~buy cd-rw~~

nak blog aper lagik eh? boring la. oh yess. my darling sherman, the cina-beng look-alike said this yesterday when he was taking to me.

eh sayang, besok kau g skola?
yaa. asal? i going study la.
ok. aku jumpe kau at satu belas ok?
huh? what?
satu belas. eleven la.
honey, its sebelas.
-cracks up in laughter-

and yes, he does speak good melay. cute la you sherms. hahaha.

ok da laa. byeee.

-looks surprised-
you found me! haha. (=

mistakes

2006-07-11T16:24:00.000+08:00

i should have learnt from my mistakes la. mistakes are made to be learnt from in the near future, which is now. but i don't and now i feel like shit.

-a string of vulgarities-

bahhhhhhhhhh.

i admit defeat la. senang. the easy way out.

i'm open, you're closed.

2006-07-10T14:32:00.000+08:00

hello world.

here's something random.

im lazy but i want to go out. im tired but still want to go out. watch match la yesterday. italy won!! woooohoooo. hahahaha.

im so bloody lazeeeee la siaaaaa. but i want to go out. but i refuse to get up from my seat. so lazyy. bloody lazeee. super lazy. super lazy ain. meeting aisha later at the mrt station cos she go ssdc with sherms and jason. and lorraine. im lazee to go so i just meet her there la.

i miss pipit la sial. pipit, i hate you! haha. no, i love you. stupid tempek. its only 2.30pm for God's sake!! so early la sia want to go home..contemplating to go to town to eat fried mars bars. zakiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii. kikikikikikikikikikikikikikiiiiiiii. hahahha. i miss him laaa. his crap. yelah kental, i miss your crap. hahaha. i think the bugger's at home sleeping or smthg.

i feel so freaking lazy can!

2006-07-09T18:52:00.000+08:00

ouch can?

it was never meant to hurt. at least i think so.

aidil!! you so cute can. omg. hahaha.

the past

2006-07-07T19:33:00.000+08:00

hello world. im currently at home. but i'll be publishing this at mac's. didn't go to school today. one word, LAZY. hahaha. aisha's performance later. im coming. definately. i miss her laaa.

okays, you might be wondering why not just publish at home kan? because my stupid internet is fucked up and screwed. must do something about it.

i just looked thru my past diaries. a lot of shit la. im giving one of my diaries to ema. hahah. yes woman. to you. why you? ntah. some similarities in there la. and don't cry ok. and that diary may just contain the answers to your qn the other night during truth or dare, why i always look happy but im not really happy deep down. haha. so ya, don't cry ok. we girls must be strong! whatever that means. HAHA.

ehhh. korang perna tgk one tree hill tak? no? LOSER. hahah. kidding la. you should watch it or rent the dvd or smthg. OTH is something i can connect to. all the shit that happens in that drama happens in my life. so ya, my life is a drama. hahhaha. screw you la! haha. why i suddenly talk abt this? cos i read my rantings in the diary and one of the rantings happen to be something related. hahahhahahaha. and the actors all damn hot can! esp chad micheal murray. wooooot! -drools can- i like his character. minus the fact that he is a bastard, a child out of wedlock, and his dad has a super screwed evil brain and he cannot make up his mind on which girl he really wants in season one. hahaha. but i like him. why? cos he is the kinda guy i want in my life. not as a boyfriend but just a friend. a close buddy. a girlfriend but in a HOT guy's body. HAHAHAHHA. i like his character la, LUCAS SCOTT. someone to lean on when im sad, someone to lend a crying shoulder, someone to just listen to me whine and then make me feel stupid for whining, just be there for me. someone who'd give me a hug and i know everything would be fine. someone who'll hold my hand when im scared. someone who'd stand beside me, and without talking or saying anything at all, understand what i feel. i want a lucas scott in my life! hahahahha. so ya. this is the exact thing i wrote in that stupid diary of mine. heh. and no, don't jump to conclusions. all of you. ni takder kena mengena dengan yang hidup ataupun yang mati. ini hanyalah fiction semata-mata. hahah!

and look at what else i found amongst those yellowing dusty pages: nurul's quotes. she used to give me tonnes of them when i was down and sad. i love you la. here's my fave.

don't give up if you still wanna try.
don't wipe your tears if you still wanna cry.
don't settle for an answer if you still wanna know.
and don't ever say you don't love him if you can't bear to let him go.

how can you hate him when he's always on your mind?
how can you not want him when he is all that you want inside?
how can you let go when you don't want to part?
and how can you not love him when he controls your heart?

goes out to all thise lovelorn people la! i hope this can help? haha. thank you nurul. she's wise. wise old woman. hahaha. not old laaa. i still love you!

and all the shennenigans (sp?) me, nurul and ema buat in lecture last sem. girls, remember the "there are only 4 pockets in a pair of standard jeans" thing? hahaha. im laughing as i read this stupid crap we wrote. amazingly, we passed our exams ey? haha. and this diary, im giving to nurul. cos she is no longer always with us in lecture. so, it serves as a memory la. hahahhahaha. ketawa la kau rebak rabak biler kau baca bende bende alah ni sumerr. feeling alam...hahah! and i am so laughing at our merepek-ness. im glad i kept the book and not chuck it away some place where it will be all dusty.

all those aside, im scared. i swear i am.

ok bye sumerr.

shahrul is beiggg an ass. aishaaaaaa. i hate your boify. hahahahah

2006-07-06T17:54:00.000+08:00

just as i expected. tak buat pon report. hahahahhaha. fucking waste my time in the library while waiting for nurul. hahahaha. pergi jahanam la! hahah.

siak punyer zul. buat aku ketawe jer.
tiuuu tiuuu! HAHAHA

life goes easy on me..

2006-07-06T16:33:00.000+08:00

most of the time. well, guess what? this isn't one of those times. HAHA!

mcm loser siak dok pat library sorang sorang buat marketing. heh. my group failed the freaking ICA, thus, we have to re-do everything. i mean, it is our fault la, or mebbe mine?, cos we last minute chiong and rush everything. hahah. BURN. and knowing me, when im infront of my lappie complete with music and internet, i will stray away. blog hop la, blog la like im doing now, MSN blah blah blah. hahahaha. concentrate sia ain!! heh.

i miss aisha la!
she go tarian. abes aku sorang siak. pffffft. mcm da lamer aku tak dudok dudok ngn dier, isap rokok, bual merepek. haha. padahal padahal. baru last tuesday aku main truth or dare ngn kawan kawan kuu, nurul, ema, aisha and ezad. so funn. hahah. i was dared to lift something disgusting from the tong sampah at the smoking area and walk around with it. nasib baik la da malam..takder org nmpk. haha. they were super disgusted la! the thing i lifted had some dirty liquid all over it. HAHAHAH. fun siak! suka aku ngn bebende disgusting ni. they asked me to choose, that or shouting hello to a complete stranger. hahaha. suka ain! heh.

aisha had to tel a lie to the nurse which turned out ugly. but they are ok la. scary ok! ema had to tahan a taxi then tell the uncle dier tak jadi nk naik. nurul had to ask a bus driver whether the bus goes to woodlands checkpoint. hahaha. truths were spilled, deepest darkest secrets, emotions blah blah blah. tears, laughters and embarrassment. nerve wrecking sial. and i already feel the impact of our convo.

the next day, main lagik truth or dare! haha. clad in business suits somemore. mcm bodoh. i had to drag a chair from one end of the canteen to the other thrice. ezad kene pakai pantyhose on his head, then he had to wipe three tables, aisha had to use hafiz's jacket as a tudong and walk around, hafiz had to wear the pantyhose on his arms and walk around. amazingly, ema tk kene dare. lucky toot. and i? i had to kiss aisha on the mouth for 4 seconds. best you! HAHAHAH. sial. waited for nurul, then we girls went to town dengan si hafiz skali. lepak at crown prince nyer starbucks, saw some people. sial laa. tkmo perangai uh. seriously. da kene told off pastu nk perangai ngn aku. like hello? aku tk hilang pape la tk kawan ngn kau. LOSER. geram nyer akuuuuu. makan makan then balek. balek tros tido. penat gilerr. woken up by dad at 2.45am just to solat isyak. tu laaa. saper suro tk sembahyang dulu sebelom tido? since i was awake, i decided to catch the match. lepas the penalty jer when zidane scored, aku putus harapan bahawa portugal akan menang. so i went to sleeeeep. true enough, the lost. hahahahha. lucky nvr watch.

ehhhhh. panjang nyer aku blog. ok laaaaa. almost 5pm balls. and i have yet to start on the report. jawab nyer aper? MAMPOS. hahah.

tagged. AGAIN.

2006-07-04T16:27:00.000+08:00

tagged by ems.
thanks uhhh.

How many times can you honestly say you've been in love?
~> honestly? i dunno. i thought i was though once upon a time.

` Do you believe that everyone has a soul- mate?
~> i suppose soo. i think. i dunno.

` Do you think that you should become friends with someone first?
~> a big DUH la

` Have you ever had your heart broken?
~> i suppose. a long time ago? bedek sial.

` What do you think about long-distance relationships?
~> a big NO. im the kind who tend to stray away. but i suppose i can try.

`Your thoughts on online relationships?
~> coooool. but it sucks la sometimes. ups, downs. a bit thrilling. i like uh. heh.

` Would you rather date someone five years older or five years younger?
~> i wouldn't mind 5 years younger actually. as long as he is mature enough for me.

` Haveyou ever seen a friend as more than a friend?
~> funny question. i suppose yes la. it gets all weird and stuff. very kekok conversations, mixed feelings blah blah blah. you all know la ye...

` Do you believe the statement, "Once a cheater always a cheater"?
~> no la. i think i have changed. AHAHAHAHAH

` Have you ever loved someone so much that it hurt & you cried?
~> ya. period.

` How many kids do you want to have?
~> diam sial. hahahahha. two? three? see how many i can produce. HAHA

` Is there someone who you like at the moment?
~> one big HAHAHAHAHAHA.

` Do you usually fall for a wrong guy/girl or the right guy/girl?
~> WRONG WRONG WRONG. all wrong.

` What is your favorite color?
~> orangeeeeee. i love.

` What are your views on gay marriages?'
~> ok laa. im open minded, met some gays here and there. i actually believe that the love they have for each other is much more suci you know. can see how much they really really love each other. if only normal relationships can be like that huh.

` Have you ever broken someone's heart?
~> errrr. guilty as charged. mutiple charges.

`Have you ever given or been given roses?
~> waaaaaaay back in sec 3 siaaaaaaa.

` Are you the one who makes the move or do you wait for them to make the move?
~> i used to make all the bloody moves in my relationships. no more. no more.

` What is your all time favorite romance movie?
~> A Lot Like Love. i saw it for the first time, and i cried buckets. ok la. part tu bedek. but i did cry.

` Imagine you're 79 & your spouse just died, would you remarry after they died & you were married for 60 years?
~> no way la sial.

` At what age did you start noticing the opposite/same sex?
~> primary 3. GATAL! but that time afiq really cute la. as in afiq NYP, not my idiotic bestfriend.

` What song do you want played as you walk down the aisle?
~> ntah. some lovey lovey ones la i suppose.

'Are most high school kids infatuated or in love?
~> both. a lil bit here and there. they mature like no tmr la kids nowadays. cehhh.

' What was your first love like?
~> i felt at that time, it WAS first love la. everything went well. except for the fact that he kept asking me to report strength and i couldn't have a social life.

What's the longest time you've ever like someone?
~> a few months. 4? 5?

Would you give up everything for love?
~> almost everything. but i gave up more than i could take back.

Will your life be in complete without love?
~> nope. love does make the world go round..

What do you notice first in a guy/girl?
~> smile. confidence.

What do you like most about your crush?
~> oh man. so many things la. hahaha. his voice.

Do you like someone?
~> BUMMER

Last person who hugged you?
~> technically aisha. sayang kau la!

ok bye.

one more thing

no one dies a virgin. cos life fucks all of us.

and lorraine said hi ppl! (=

the truth

2006-07-04T13:45:00.000+08:00

here's the truth on the truth; it hurts.
and so we lie.

lies. comforting in a way. wrapping you up in you own world, where nothing ever goes wrong. white lies. lies you use to cover up another lie. all in the name of good.

sometimes when you lie to much, you begin to belive it is the truth.

well, shit happens. shit always happens.

PICTURESSSS

2006-07-03T15:17:00.000+08:00

some pictures from the other day at school. (=

group leader aku sunggoh garang lorrr. and im multi-tasking. powderful horrr. hahahaha.

ok. contact lens aku kering. stupid. and it keeps going to the other side of my eyeballs.

ok bye la. nanti dier biseng lagik. tengok tengok lagik. takot you! HAHA

random pictures

2006-07-01T23:00:00.000+08:00

something attracted me to this song.

Beautiful Disaster - Kelly Clarkson
He drowns in his dreams
An exquisite extreme I know
He's as damned as he seems
And more heaven than a heart could hold

And if I try to save him
My whole world could cave in
It just ain't right
It just ain't right

Oh and I don't know
I don't know what he's after
But he's so beautiful
Such a beautiful disaster
And if I could hold on
Through the tears and the laughter
Would it be beautiful
Or just a beautiful disaster

He's magic and myth
As strong as what I believe
A tragedy with
More damage than a soul should see
And do I try to change him
So hard not to blame him
Hold me tight
Baby hold me tight

Oh 'cause I don't know
I don't know what he's after
But he's so beautiful
Such a beautiful disaster
And if I could hold on
Through the tears and the laughter
Would it be beautiful
Or just a beautiful disaster

I'm longing for love and the logical
But he's only happy hysterical
I'm waiting for some kind of miracle
Waited so long
So long

He's soft to the touch
But frayed at the ends he breaks
He's never enough
And still he's more than I can take

Oh 'cause I don't know
I don't know what he's after
But he's so beautiful
Such a beautiful disaster
And if I could hold on
Through the tears and the laughter
Would it be beautiful
Or just a beautiful disaster

He's beautiful
Such a beautiful disaster
(Aaahh)
Beautiful
(Beautiful disaster)
Beautiful disaster

i miss these people.

my guides. haha. i look fat. i AM fat. back in 2004? or 2005? i miss this
bunch of ghurls who used to make my friday afternoons at school very the
kecoh.

my pri sch boy mates. yes. that's pipit. and yes, that's afiq.

the rest of the bunch.

the most irritating. but i love them.

i love them too. my kentot and twin.

the boplehz. HAHA. all here except for khairi. rindu banget loh!

oh. i just love this picture. hahaha.

the bird, the nurse, the kentot and me. (=

ok tu jerr. oh. and my bro going away to brunei. im so sad can. bahhhh.
seeing him for the last time next week. ='(

pffffft

2006-07-01T16:02:00.000+08:00

i miss my long hair lah!

seeeee. now i regret cutting my hair.

dear friends, please refrain me from cutting my hair. please remind me to let it grow so that i won't miss my long hair so much.

dear hair, please please please grow faster. i promise i won't cut you or curl you or whatever la. well, mebbe some curls. but no cutting. unless you suddenly have a life of your own and start grwoing in ways i can't control. which is not gonna happen la. HAHA.

i just miss my long hair. weird, i know. just a source of comfort la. when im stressed or something i just play with my hair, twirl it around my fingers. but now all i have is my small barney bantal which i bring along everywhere. at home that is. not like some people (read: nurul). hehe. keluar my room, must have the bantal. go kitchen, go here, go there. but not the toilet la of course. hygiene purposes. hahaha. so yaaa, i now only have my bantal as a source of comfort. unless i get myself a pair of strong arms which comes attached to a hot body with equally hot shoulders to wrap myself in when im need of some comfort la. but that's another story altogether..

my phone is so silent. aiseyymannn. too silent. rosak ke? no la. tk rosak pon. tkper la. okok. merepek. hahaha.

eh groupmates, our projects all when want to do siaaaa. left how many days onlyyy. and did i tell you about my biz finance punyer warning letter? haha! i think debared aredi la. wth, who cares. nyahahaha.

oh wells. peach yogurt never tasted so goooooooood on a hot sunny day. let's just laze around at home today, shall we?

2006-06-30T16:36:00.000+08:00

alamak lagu nyerr. heh. touching dot com. hahaha. i like this song la. why? don't like? click the stop button la bodoh! HAHA.

i just made a new fren. HIS name is candy. HAHA. giler punyer dingdong.

ok la. sampai di sini saja sayang..cehh. aku malas uh nak update sumer. saturday rot at home, sunday madrasah. kelecehan dunia.

tonight premiere of smallville and charmed balls! must watch lorr.

okok.

ehh YOU, chill ok? everything's gonna be ok laaaa. ring me up if you need anything okaaaay? smile balls. (=

ok bye everysinglebody!

oh wells.

2006-06-29T22:22:00.000+08:00

look who i found sleeping on the train. haha! cute kaaaaannnnn. kesian member penat sangat layan merepek hamba. thanks for cheering me up la that day. (=

ANYWAYS.

what else can i say?
im such a good liar. i can just look into the person's face or eyes and spin a web of deceit.
im sorry

i have to stop this la before it gets any worse.

i watched zul dingdong run for his 2.4km today. so cute! bontot baik zul!! haha. don't angry horr. but cute la. hahaha.

besok start at 8am. grrrrr. ~~i think i want to hitch a ride from zul uh. heh.~~ alaaaaa. cannot. he say public transport safer. sound like my mother siaaaaa.

life has been sooooo impossible. 8 sticks. 8 freaking sticks. im so gonna die.

so many people i didn't want to see i saw today. people i want to see, batang hidong haram dorang pon tk kelihatan. sedih you knoww. then a bloody fucker threw his number at me inside the train. not once he did it. not twice. but ni da three times la ehh. knn ccb. then pat sch, some freaking tong sampah people, people mind you, and they are the people who carry out that filthy dustbins filled with whatever nonsense, those two fucking bastards have the cheek to talk about our breasts. they made a pass at us la..they said about our breast being big in boyan, a dialect. pukimak, dier pikir aku tak paham kaper sialll. fuck man. i wanted to just slap the faces la. fucking cheebye sial. arghh. im so angry can.

ahhhhh. pergi mampos la.

2006-06-27T23:44:00.000+08:00

i hate the way you look at me.

let's play a game of pretend, shall we? just you. and me. and no one else. just pretend that i donno know that you know and you're pretending not to know. confusing, yes? but do you know what i know? how do you know? you're not me, yes?

i should stop this. really. seriously.

just play pretend with me ok?

school.

2006-06-27T00:21:00.000+08:00

my sanity is slipping.
slipping through my fingers like water.
like water, the tears rolled down..

oh fuck.

of all days to pick on me, my parents picked the first day of school. cb la. nag laa. you think i give a shit? two words. pergi mampos. i don't care. nag la, nag. masok kanan, klua kiri. pi mampos.

dier da memekak. malam malam buta niii. aku baru pikir nak relax ehh. sial.

oh hello yuyun and liyana. (=

school was shit. trust me it was shit. it was kind of reliving a bad dream. a really horrible nightmare. i hate nightmares. oh wtf.

i don't get why it bothers you so much. really. enlighten me.

randomness.

i have two ulcers in my mouth and God it hurts.
its been a week and counting..no. not the ulcers.
im sleeeeeeepy. but i can't go to bed.
hungry. super hungry.
turning into a nicotine freak.
i don't even know why i care. do you?

answer me this: why? and i'll put away all your doubts.

this stupid song has been ringing in my head like forever. sugarcult's pretty girl. the lyrics somehow makes me tear. haha! padahal padahal.

im watching frasier and i still cannot believe that he played the beast in xmen3. unbelievable.

oh wells. all that's well, ends well. those that don't, well, don't.

im tired.

2006-06-25T19:36:00.000+08:00

i have a super huge headache and its throbbing like mad.

i think i shall take a break from whatever it is im doing. but still, don't worry, im coming to school tomorrow.

which reminds me, i have to wake the LEGEND up tomorrow oh-so-early at 7 am. some unspoken arragement we made. haha! don't ask about the legend and what it means. sumpah aku tak tau and tkmo tau.

the hols are over people. its time to wake up from your endless slumber and concentrate on your studies. ni part i hate a lot.

its monday tomorrow. oh the horror. having second thoughts though....

halohh

2006-06-25T00:39:00.000+08:00

this that, this and that.
the pit was ok laa. not too bad. ate little little. cos wasn't that hungry. took the bloody cab home cos i was just to fucken tired. nak klua kan duit, but the machine for my atm card takder. basket. so hafta ask the uncle to drop me off at bpp. but that freakin old man say can pay using nets. and GUESS WHAT? tak bole la sial. da sampai bawah block baru found out tak bole. musibot haram. so hafta patah balek. pastu dier ketok aku 18 ketol. sialan dot com.

im so tired and lethargic.

eh amin, aku suka banget pat rambot kau. haha. and mcm dier kene bully rabak ngn aku. and almost everyone at the pit mcm emo emo seyy. hahahahah. asal la ngn korang korang nieee. pi pit kan enjoy. haha! thought of staying for the fireworks, tapi mummy's girl had to reach home before 10pm. -.- i'll watch it some other time. heh.

eh aku nak ke escape themepark. free tickets la ehh. saper nak ikottt? and this time aku tkmo kene buih lagik. setan haram btol si siti ema bte sulaiman. haha! buih akuu. tak sayang kau laaa.

ok go. aku mau tido. ehhh. isyak dulu. nanti bpk aku memekak. pastu nanti subuh. peritt siaaakkkk.

oh look at the time

2006-06-24T14:46:00.000+08:00

hah! im late. so late. super dee duper late. mampos la aku kene ngn si pipit. muahahahah. masek ader time plak tu nk go bloghopping and tgk myspace. tsk tsk.

aku blom siap la eh. and aku pon blom kemas-kemasing my bag. mampos mampos. tapi tkper. meeting at four. and i can go out at 3.30? cos 4pm equals to 4.30pm gitu cos confirm chop acap lambat. haha! skali aku yang lambat eh. sial dot com. so that leaves me 45 mins to siap-siap and kemas bag? and by the time this post is over, republish, gedebak gedebuk, left with half an hour to get ready. where can! i take a very looooooooooooong time to get ready. tu lah! besar kan taik mata jer. and sorry siket ok, hamba da mandi.

omg. asal aku blog dalam melayu eh? ni confirm da kanchiong spider tu pasal bebual ada siket tonggang terbalek.

pikir balek, nanti aku takot aku sorang pompan. aiseyy mannnn. i don't like. nu tak ikot cos she's working. and aisha celebrate bdae aaron and ema coming at 6pm. i hope she comes. ok la ok la. nanti member memekak. tapi suspect kuat dier pon blom bangon. hahahaha.

oh. it suddenly dawned on me that monday is coming sooooon. and i start at 9am. but im so bloody lazy. mcm nak dtg at 10am. or mebbe not come at all. haha! but cannot la. must come. da banyak kali daku cabot class. 3 and a half years confirm chop hahal. haha! lame.

ok bye la. nak siap-siaping.
(=

pictures later.

best dot com!

2006-06-23T18:48:00.000+08:00

im a horrible pillion. pillion kan the term? hahahaha.

but....

best la sial naik motor!

minus the sliding sliding part. asek terslide ajerr. haha. and the hesitation to ride in the first place. aku rasa bodoh okek. haha! and also minus the smell of my hair. muahahahhaha. and also my contacts being dry. but im not complaining (=

zul, nak naik motor lagik can? tapi si dingdong tu cakap tak boleh. tapi takper. im going to find ways to blackmail him. heh.

thanks uh zul!! (=

cold feet.

2006-06-23T15:16:00.000+08:00

why? cos im in the FAL and im wearing freaking slippers. cb. hahahaha.

hello hello sumer orang. (=

lost and drowned in projects. clouded in smoke. high on nicotine. addicted? nahh. i just need something to hold.

ouhhh. pening pening. suddenly feel light headed. and i just remembered smthg. i need to see the freaking doc. im 2 years late for that appointment. hahah! im lazy la. i need a personal escort i think. if i have the money, i'll pay someone to nag at me to see this doctor, nag at me to have my meals, nag at me not be lazy. hahaha. IF i have the money. problem is, i don't. so there's a cheap alternative: my lovely frens. but they don't nag often la. so that means i have to save tonnes of money to hire a full-time nagger. actually i have a full-time nagger. 2 actually. one is my mother. and the other one is, well, a friend.

thing is, i hate my mother's nagging cos very biseng. and my friend is, well, busy. so i have no choice but to take the long route and kumpol duit. ahahhahaha!

ok merepek.

im supposed to anta the report by three. and its 3. and i haven even start. baik ain. wooooohooooo! 3 and a half years confirmed. oh wth.

i dread for monday to come. that was just random. im in a random mooood. i hate being random.

fuck it.

and no. you can't tell me not to swear. and yes, i know im gonna get a huge scolding for arguing with my ~~freaking~~ parents. ppfffffffffftttttttt. i hate you. and im glad the feeling's mutual. haha! ya riiiiight.

oh wells. off to do the proj then.

i took sucha long time to type this post. so much clutter in my head. too much.

tralalalala

2006-06-22T12:43:00.000+08:00

tkder orang pat sch! sedih ok! except for me and lin. wahahaha. giler punyer budak.

kejap lagik makan at nurul's house. yaaaaaahhhhhhooooo! mama masak aper agak nyer niari. lapar plak aku. mcm nk berak plak skrg. siooolll. hah!

project calls. i hate biz finance. arrrggghhhh.

im sorry

2006-06-21T22:25:00.000+08:00

sorry la everybody for the previous post. very the angry la.

anyway.

i'm fine la everyone! i swear. (=

i have my girls checking up on me every single time. just to make sure im okayy.
awwwwwwww. im so touch-ed la! sayang korang sumer. yes, all of you gorgeous beings.
aisha, nurul and ema, i love you girls to the ultimate maximum. hugs and sloppy sloppy kisses.

a lepak-ing session at ilyas' place was funn. aaron so cute can! macam budak kecik. and i cooked maggi for everyone. and it turned out soggy cos ilyas fuckface decided to put in the maggi even before the water was boiling. haha! stupid dingdong. and he is by far the slenger-est person i ever met because he stuffed in 3 packets of maggi in a teeeeny tiny pot. slenger bacen la kau.

pit! im going to your pit! haha. sounds retarded. hahahahahhaha. and im so addicted to his lots love..peace. coooool siaaaa. haha. ok pit, tkmo prasan. heh.

okek. i need to sleep. tmr have sch. stuuuuuupidd. stupid projects. at 10 am some more. crap. and i still have marketing, ICT and supply chain. WTF.

OK BYE.

pergi mampos la kau.

2006-06-20T17:54:00.000+08:00

i fucking hate everysinglebody in my family. FUCK YOU. ALL OF YOU.
probably except the new maid and my sisters.
so, everysinglebody in my family minus bibik minus my sisters equals to my freaking parents.

kanina chaochibaaaaiiiiiii. screw all of you la!

its amazing when your world is already fucking screwed and you think nothing can ever screw it up more, you have your parents to thank. for screwing it up even more that you feel like a pile of shit.

with that, i can't go to the night fucking safari. thanks dad.

i love my girls!
ema and nurul so cute. both frantically calling me cos i sound depressed. wahahaha. chill girls. im fineee.
aisha also. had time for me despite being with Nurse. hahah. i totally forgot her bf's a nurse. heh.

im smiling a bit now thanks to my girls' antics. klaka la korang! heh.

oh

2006-06-20T15:43:00.000+08:00

another friend,
another boy,
another heart break.

hearts broken.
broken hearts.

im not talking any sense at all.

FRIDAY NIGHT SAFARI MASEK ON OK!! (=
despite what i told nurul the night before.
i fucking need to go out.

ok go.

info on the pit
its at ECP. ard afternoon i suppose? 3 or 4 pm to late.
im probably going if i can get my parents to let me go. haha! or i just go just to see pipit and his friends then go home. or go and bawl my eyes out to my best friend.

baaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

oh hello

2006-06-19T13:15:00.000+08:00

a huge hello to everysinglebody reading my blog! i feel so gay can. hahahaha. ok that was retarded. i miss you, you and you. and most of all, i miss YOU. haha! how random can i be? very. riiiiiight. moving on..

sorry for the lack of updates. the desktop at home went kapooot! on me. grrrrr. i hate my desktop. perangai dot com. haha. i love the dot com thing. and my sister came up with dot sg. slenger bacen.

not much going ons. my darling kentut aka aisha aka tulang bergerak is happily attached. congrats bacen. (= skrg turn aku nk carik matair. wahahahahah.

sentosa trip was blah if not for nurul. we talked and talked and talked. abt him, her, them, they, us, you and me. semua tentang kita..yeap. some ghurlish convo which im sure none of you are interested in. we laughed in the sun and nurul went home a baked potato. or roasted? haha. went back to her store where i got stuck alone cos she had to work. then i went home alone.

walking on the streets of orchard alone in the middle of a saturday afternoon with people walking pass you isn't that bad. i enjoyed it actually. a little time alone was what i needed to clear all those clutter in my head. or a little bit of it. i shall do it again soon.

im supposed to be doing my biz finance punyer proj but im just lazy. haaha! and aisha and lin made me laugh about something until my sides hurt. huahuahua.

quick replies:

lizah: thanks uhh. haha! will do it now cos im super bored. (=

nurul: aku pon sch ok! hehe.

pipit: alaaa sayang. kau tetap cute in my eyes. as long as i stay cute in YOUR eyes. waahahaha. lots love. peace. haha. syang kau la tempek.

ema and aisha: night safari coming up! heh.

aite. tagged by lizah.

7 random facts:

1. i love to daydream also like lizah.
2. im gonna graduate in 3 and a half years. and im making sure of it. haha!
3. i miss my straight hair.
4. addicted to green tea.
5. i make things difficult for myself.
6. i love that cute 1st year lawyer in Boston Legal.
7. i hate people who makes me stress.

7 things that scare me.

1. GOD.
2. my parents.
3. burninig in hell. which im sure is gonna happen. ahahaha.
4. those scary movies.
5. dropping out of school.
6. falling.
7. and losing everything i have.

7 random music at the moment.

1. blower's daughter. haha. its still stuck in my head. (=
2. the scientist.
3. dance dance - fall out boys.
4. for you i will - teddy geiger
5. geek in the pink - jason mraz
6. in your eyes - the used
7. so sick - neyo or whatshisname

7 things i like the most.

1. polite people.
2. ~~boys~~ men. haha!
3. fooooooooood.
4. green tea.
5. talking crap with my girlfriends.
6. ice tall 4 pump vanilla caramel machiato. or however you spell it.
7. and my most fave drink in my entire lifetime: chocolate chip cream frappe!! i lolololovee! hahaha.

7 things i say most.

1. okaaaaaaay.
2. riiiiight.
3. baik la ehh.
4. sialan!
5. knn ccb.
6. something something dot com.
7. suka hati kau la nak. kau pon da besar.

haha!

7 people to do this.

1. aisha
2. nurul
3. ema
4. any other bored people.

ok dabes!

member da tekan daaa. so hafta do the proj. aisha da stress dot com. aku pulak cannot be bothered dot sg. wahahaha.

aku rindu kawan kawan akuuuuu!

random picture of the day. haha! jgn marah marah okkaaay. sayang semua nyaa. heh.

like i said, sayang semua nyaaa. so don't angry angry ok! hee.

ok bye.

what a long entry. ok bye la.

oh wait. before i forget, the previous entry, the song, it wasn't meant for anyone. hahah. just clearing up some things. ok bye. again. haha!

lurps!

and so it is..

2006-06-16T20:01:00.000+08:00

they say, something's gonna happen.
i say, nothing's happening.

control your emotions.
and that's what i keep telling myself again and again.

editted//*

Teddy Geiger - For You I Will

I'm wandering the streets
In a world underneath it all
Nothing seems to be
Nothing tastes as sweet as what I can't have
Like you, and the way you're
Twisting your hair 'round your finger
Tonight I'm not afraid to tell you
What I feel about you

(CHORUS):
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
And cannonball into the water
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
For you I will

For you I will

Forgive me if I st-stutter
From all of the clutter in my head
'Cause I could fall asleep in those eyes
Like a waterbed
Do I seem familiar
I crossed you in hallways a thousand times
No more camoflauge, I want to be exposed
And not be afraid to fall

(CHORUS)

Always want what you can't have
But I've got to try

I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
For you I will
For you I will
For you I will

If I could only dim the lights in the mall
To create a mood, I would
And shout out your name
So it echoes in every room, I would
That's what I'd do
That's what I'd do
To get through to you

(CHORUS)

Always want what you can't have
But I've got to try

I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
For you I will
For you I will
For you I will

bwargh

2006-06-16T02:10:00.000+08:00

a few minutes ago i was at the edge of my seat wanting to go to the night safari.

now im so emo i can die.

its raining
and i miss you. i still do.
fuck it.

*d wOrLd oF d cRaP pRiNcEsS*